..When 30 Was old

Let's take a trip down memory lane, shall we?

 age 3-4 Burger King Milly

 Age 22, Applebees Milly

Age 22, Amelia Island Age 23, Comedy Club Macon

 Age 24, Pottery painting Macon

 Age 25, ATL Airport- #5 missed flight to Vegas

  25, Vegas

  26, At my little house in Milly

  27, Milly at GCSU

 28, Hilton Head Island

29, Tybee Island

 29

30, Milly









There you have it. A look back over the last 10 years of birthdays- minus my 21st- because clearly that wasn't documented (trust me- that is a good thing). I did have a huge pool party- but those arent digital prints.

I have reached another milestone and can only credit God for that. In the past 10 years, I have done some incredible things. I think I wrote about those things a while ago (I think 10 year HS reunion). In the past 2 years, I have found the one whom my soul loves, got married, and are expecting our firstborn in a few months. Whoa- time goes fast when you hit that married point.

As far as an astronomical birthday for my dirty 30- I wouldn't take it that far- but good that is what we will call it. I woke up to 3 little pups snuggling with me and singing me happy birthday. My sweet husband had taken me out to dinner and a movie the night before- and was now at work. Then I said- what the heck I'm 30- I'm eating cupcakes for breakfast. ..with a bagel- it was balanced....

Sprinkles make everything better. Then I went to church and it was a really good sermon- and my sweet friends in Sunday school had brought me a breakfast strudel with "30" candles on it. After church I went home and Kevin was there.

Yay for presents! My husband is a PHENOMENAL gift giver- hands down. I got 3 dvds that were great- especially another copy of The Goonies since someone stole my other one... a HAMMOCK! (this is huge because I have been saying I wanted one for the past 2 years)... a foot spa (heated, massaging, and amazing..since I complained about my last one getting broken and my feet hurting now that I am pregnant) and the dinner and a movie (The Giver). Oh! and a onesie for Kaleb that says "My daddy knows a lot but my mommy knows everything". So good- he takes notes, literally, and never has to question his gifts!

After presents we did laundry and Kevin took a nap - told you it was exciting. I got SHOCKED from putting something in the baby's room and touching the wrong part of the missing light plate. Needless to say the cover goes back on today!!

We finally went to his parents for lake time around 2:30- the bottom fell out- we finally got the boat situated and ready to go- get on the water for 10 minutes as Kevin is about to wake surf- and ALARM ALARM ALARM... a SWAT callout.

High tail it back to the dock- drop him off- and he's gone. I did enjoy a nice boat ride with my in-laws and dogs- so I just made the most of it (my parents were out of town- if you were wondering). My sweet in-laws ordered my favorite pizza (Dominos hand tossed bacon, pepperoni, pineapple) and we had a nice dinner just hanging out. Kevin finally made it about around 9:30 and we enjoyed this masterpiece of a caramel cake made by my Mother in law. (it won't rotate in the program)

So, overall it was a good birthday. 30 seems so ancient when you are 21. Now that I'm here- it is still hard to say, but I'm guessing that I will be just fine. I'm surrounded by a great family and an awesome MIL and FIL, have a best friend, lover, and match made in heaven husband to share life with, and have a lot of friends who love me. A decade has come to a close- and a new one is underway. 

Three hundred some odd days

Here is what is has been like to be married to you for a year (and some change).

So, I have heard all sorts of sounds I didnt know existed. Laundry was multiplied by 7 when I said I do. The art of folding your shirts has finally come around. You are nice and let me sleep because you don't like being yelled at. Saturday morning breakfasts are always fun. You have way too many socks. Your hearing is dang near awful. You can fix anything, even if I didnt break it. I like when you make spaghetti. Your dish-washing skills are quite impressive. We both are competitive sleepers. The songs that we sing to our dogs should never be revealed to anyone. The floss-fart rule still stands. You have changed my spending habits- no new clothes once a month anymore, and that isn't always a bad thing. You love my parents and I love yours. It excites me when you sing Christian songs in the car. You know how to communicate- and that is what makes us strong. You pray for me and us- and never waiver in your faith to be the best man you can be before the Lord. There is a lot more, but this past year has been awesome. 

Little did you know babe, that I was praying for you long before you came. If you haven't read any of my desperate, horrible,tearfest, pathetic, what in the world was I thinking writing all of that, blog  from 2012, then you truly don't know the heartache that I had before you. I wrote a post on June 19th, 2012 that had a lot of questions that I couldn't find the answers to. I wanted to answer them now, because I finally know the answers. All it took was you. 

The original post can be found here. Im just going to answer a couple of them today.

Why is it that every one of my friends from college is happy, married, pregnant, or living the dream- and I feel like I am barely getting by?
Answer: Because it was God's time for them. Each person's time is different and not on the same clock or schedule. My time had not come yet, and he was waiting for the right time to allow me to get to the next point in my life. You were surely worth the wait. I am so happy- overjoyed and married life is the best thing ever. He makes everything beautiful in its time. Ecc 3:10
Now the date of the old post is significant. I had my first date with you  3 days later. Thanks for the happy God, in the form of this hottie. 











What does it feel like to wake up next to the same person every day? What does it feel like to know that someone loves you so much they want to spend the rest of their life with you- no one else but you?
Answer: it is the most amazing feeling in the world. There have been many sleepless nights this past year waiting on you to come home for work. Your 3am shift is really hard on me, but the sound of the beep beeps from the alarm and the garage door opening are some of the most comforting sounds at that time in the morning. SWAT callouts (like the 2 this week) scare me because I want you to come back, but I do have a different, hard-to-explain peace because I know you and your team are really good at what you do- and it is a controlled environment. I guess I get more scared from routine traffic stops because people are idiots. I  miss you when you are gone. I look at my ring everyday and thank God for you. I pray for you daily- for your safety and for your return. 

To know that you truly love me- flaws and all- makes my tear up and I am so grateful for you. I never have to question (even though I ask every day) if you still love me. You are so patient with me. You love me so much- and aren't afraid to show it. You include me in your life- and ask my opinion and that makes me thankful. You are my happy ending and you were my new beginning.  It is so awesome to know that you wanted me- and went through a LOT to make me yours. 

What is it like to know that you make someone happy? What does it feel like to know that someone wants to make you the happiest person in the world and they do simple random sweet nice things to make this happen? Or yet- what is it like to know that someone WANTS you in their life as well as NEEDS you?

Again- you go out of your way to show love to me. I get the BEST birthday presents. You really do go overboard. Flowers are routine with you- and you still take me on dates. All I have to do is mention what I want, and you get it or make it happen. Like our anniversary trip. I said I just wanted a weekend enjoying Atlanta one day- and you planned the perfect trip. Or my Christmas presents. Down to the eye cream, you got it all right. or my engagement ring. You do listen, even when I think you are just not paying me any attention. The details you put into life are so sweet and genuine. It is so nice to come home and you want to hug me. I have never had that kind of love before. You never give up on me- even when I have long given up on myself. I know you need me. Not for laundry, or cooking you dinners, or doing the grocery shopping, or running your Epsom salt baths-I know you want and need me because you tell me. (hey I need you for yard work and ironing. and handyman stuff like hanging pictures- and because you make my life better. 

What is it like to sit back in your house and know that you are paying for this house- you own it? I don't pay the bills, but Hey- thanks for making my dreams come true. It is so cool to go to a place that you are contributing to- and own, and it ours. I love our house and I will never forget on our first date you said "My house is kind of empty. Maybe you can help me decorate it." Little did I or you know that I wouldn't be much of a decorator. Those 3 canvases though, they make it work. Maybe one day I will print out pictures for all the frames I am hoarding. 

How does it feel to know someone is really in love with you, and that they don't just love you as a person, they are in love with you? I cant even explain it. You are so open and honest with me. You really do love me, but even more so, are in love with me. You aren't afraid to show me off. Let's never let that go away ok? 

Why do we have to be alone, when we don't want to be alone- no friends, no common comforts, nothing- and why does it hurt so bad?
Because God has a bigger and higher purpose for you. When you get to the good parts in life, you will appreciate them more because of where you have been and what you had to go through to grow. Because being alone taught me that I didn't need any guy to define me. It taught me how to pick up and start over. It taught me that it is ok to fail and make mistakes as long as you don't stay there. Your character is who you are when no one is looking. For a long time, lets just say I wasn't worth looking at- or being around- or being suitable for someone. God had to work on me to get me ready. Ready for you. Definitely not the way I would have chosen, but I can say that now I understand why. 


 You are truly the best husband ever and I can't thank God enough. I hope the past year has been this awesome for you! I hope you have an extra special May Day tomorrow! The big 3-0. The Dirty Thirty. Yikes. Glad it's you first and not me!